Monday, November 2, 2009

i never felt so frustrated and cheated.
its so disappointing, worse than any feeling i ever got.
i hate it when i just cant stop crying because my heart is in pain.
i hate crying, because i feel so weak and exposed whenever i cry.
i hate crying because crying only takes away a portion of the pain,
but slowly it builds up again over time.
i hate feeling this way, because i know that there's more to life and things like this will easily tide over soon.
but I still cry.
damnit.


i wrote this in one of my posts in my LJ last week:
"life's been so down lately, its just plain horrid.
i'm so distant from the world now that nothing seems to make sense anymore."
particularly like the last line.