Sunday, July 19, 2009

i've had many dreams, involving many people, many scenes and many events.
but the one i had yesterday, i've never felt like that before.

it was a perfect sunny day and yes, a04 was having a class excursion to this erm, weird place. like some sort of a nature reserve place.
so we were happily hanging around there.
when suddenly some of them started whispering to each other stuff and talking softly.
i just suddenly got this very bad feelingbut pushed it aside.
THEN, dharlynnie just had to come up to me and softly but carefully whispered to me,
that BRENDA has pneumonia and is only gonna live for no more than 9 months.
it was scary, because even though it was just a dream i can feel my heart sinking at that point.
i was of course, naturally upset and taken aback by this news and started walking through this pathway back to the bus for some time alone.
this scene is gonna be rather drama and emotional. but,
i was slowly walking back, and brenda saw me being upset about smth and started following me.
i quickened my pace and started crying harder and harder and she kept following, asking me whats wrong in her usual chirpy tone and with a smile on her face! (she obviously didnt know that i already knew)
and then it dawned upon me that that is the reason why she was silent during our previous discussion! cause in my dream, while we were hanging around at the place, we were discussing about how to celebrate rohaida's birthday together (which is in 5 months time). but i noticed brenda was just silent all throughout the discussion and kept a solemn face.
and i just remembered my dream stopping there, when i finally reached the bus.

i know the dream might be rather silly and kinda weird.
but really, i've never felt that way before in any of my dreams. ever.
i can really feel my heart sink and it ached so bloody much D:
it felt so...surreal. like as though it really is happening in real life.
sigh. i dont want another dream like that, it scared the crap out of me.
I LOVE YOU LOADS AND LOADS BRENDA!! :D
and of course, all of you amazing people (:

oh anw in case you're wondering how my dream works, i can shed some light. (HAHA)
1.) why brenda?
ok, you dont know this. but i always tend to dream of the person whom i last talk to on msn. no kidding.
2.) why pneumonia?
cause in the afternoon, i was reading an article on pneumonia and it says smth like how 1 out of 7 ppl who die, they die due to pneumonia? :/
3.) why a04 and the class outing?
cause a04's gonna go for a makan class outing soon! :D
4.) why dharlynnie?
thats the random part of my dream

LOL.
i just wasted 15 mins on this! sigh.