Tuesday, September 23, 2008

i feel disturbed over a lot of things and listing everything out will just make me sound like a spoilt brat. but i need to rant or i'll go crazy, i swear :@

i dont get it why some people try so hard. they try so hard to be this, to be that, to be everything but themselves. its such a shame cause they change and as much as i know that its just natural for human beings to change, its still bad, cause its not the positive kind of change. you get me?

it gets obvious when you do things that you dont usually do. the way you talk, the way you walk, the way you act, and even the way you laugh, makes me wonder if i even know you in the first place. from someone whom i used to love and cherish, to someone whom i hardly have much respect for. i thought you were different, but i guess you're just the same. ohwell.

and all along while typing that, i miss all my past years in crescent. people come and go in our lives, in my life. and its hard to believe that i am the one going this time round. im starting to miss the normal typical school life.

oh, and that person. saying things that you dont mean? what a joke. i feel like a fool all over again now.

but apart from all those, of course some memories are bittersweet.
i didnt have a good first impression of this particular person when i first met her. i spent half of my time ignoring this person and i feel really dumb cause only after the second half, i learnt to love and cherish her with all my heart.

i dont believe that unconditional love is only limited to mothers and couples.
i have yet to experience that kind of feeling but i'll learn along the way.

and all along, i've never really bothered much about you. you were just another friend, just another person to add to the fun. but growing up makes me a tad more mature and see things from a different perspective. i admit, that you have saved me in many ways, and you will always, always be a Superhero in my eyes. thank you for everything, really, thank you.

okay, i just typed a whole load of stuff which i can bet not even half of the people who come here will read the whole crap that i've just typed. and i cant believe i actually took up 1/2 hr just to type that when i have so much hmwk waiting for me.

oh. another thing. i am officially in love with Zed! :D
WOOHOO! hahaha. so cute so cute so cute!! i never went so gaga before. lol.
liy thinks that Zed's cute too but raihan doesnt really believe so. haha raihan, you're weird ah!
my new obsession HAHAHAHA. damn, im suddenly high.

remember bleeding love?
bet you don't.
remember my serious joke?
bet you don't.
remember us and that empty space between us?
i can bet on this one that you definitely don't.